The new normal :)

Its been AGES! I've been having such a great time....I can't help but to be thankful for all the peace, blessings positivity & love that's just suddenly constant. Its my new normal which is awesome and different from my 'old normal' which was still very much rich with love but...I was stressed,trying to do a million things at once...seriously I was THIS CLOSE to going bonkers.

someone said something the other day that made so much sense to me....and it wasn't even like I hadn't heard it before. It was just the right time for me to hear it. I was ready to receive it and it felt great. what she said was 'You decide what you allow. If you say your peace shall not be disturbed, then it will be so. Take stillness, understanding and patience with you wherever you go. you decide what you ALLOW to upset,anger or sadden you.  and on the same note, you decide what you allow to bring you joy'
 well shit, preach guuurl,PREACH!!!
I damn near caught the holy ghost and broke out in tongues hearing that. it just clicked inside me!
 Im at peace and I do my best for everyone I love and try to leave everyone I come across with a good feeling. and for that I am amazing :)

Loving my new normal.

Here are some pics of some amazing people in my life. I often cover them with kisses. just because:)

My love!!! so handsome this one seeesh

my boooooo <3 that smile ayayay

rick is awesome.  the end

 Momsey had to fight me off lol. Once this kiss monster has a grip on ya its ON!

Day 37 !!!!!

Just wanted to write a little post to keep myself motivated to make it to 60 days.

A while ago I decided to try doing the 30day challenge at Bikram Yoga (which means doing 30 bikram yoga sessions in 30 days). I'm always hopping back and forth between Miami and Nyc so I've tried and failed at this challenge before lol. BUT not this time!!!!

the 3rd week was critical....I almost bailed at day 19 I think. I could feel my body changing but I felt physically tired. The thing is, I wasn't just doing the challenge to be able to say I did it (although that feels good too lol). I just said to myself, "If I'm going to do this....I'm going all the way". 

as in discipline in terms of hydrating regularly. Eating right, sleeping on time etc.

I had noticed, when I was just going a few times a week, that I was sleeping better.

But I think what happened in week 3 of my challenge was that even If I relapsed with bad habits in terms of what I eat, forgetting to drink water, or forcing myself to stay awake reading...or whatever it may be...I refused to bail on this challenge. I had come too far. but I wasnt doing what was needed to keep my body strong enough to handle it.

It was almost like my body said 'listen missy, if we're doing this you're gonna have to work with me....you gotta treat me better. I NEED water dummy, don't feed me that garbage just because you can....and go to sleep on time. seriously. JUST SLEEP".

I missed 2 days in the challenge which they'll allow as long as you do 2 double sessions to make up for it. if you miss 3 days within the challenge period,you have to start over....which i wasn't willing to do. omg....my first double session was AMAZING! the 2nd double wasn't as enjoyable lol but I made it through:)

I was putting this massive pressure on my body without giving it the tools to handle it. I workout alot outside of Bikram- I do pole dancing, jogging etc...and honestly, thats not even too much. the body can do great things, given the proper support and means.

So anyway, I dropped the bad habits and started fueling my body in all the positive ways I could think of...and I made it! Not only did I complete the 30 day challenge, I'm going for 60 days!

Today is day 37!!!! only 23 more days to go :))))  s

 My name on the '30-day challengers' board after my 30th session!!!

 taken day 34. Felt pretty good:)

This was actually taken  right before my 36th session lol. It was a great class. sometimes you leave tired, sometimes you leave feeling like you could go for another round ...it kinda depends on how you're feeling on the inside as well. Yesterday I felt pretty strong and left my 36th session feeling ontop of the world.

And I'm feeling the same vibe today :)

I'm off  shortly to my 37th session ! 

Thanks for reading, wishing you a lovely day!

Nicole scherzinger

From the 3.42 mark----Nicole scherzinger kills it. She really is an inredible vocalist.

Poledance week 7

We had a sub.Can't remember any of the songs cause i wasn't too fired up about them...BUT I did learn a little extra move to the 'firefly' that I thought was cute :))

Katie Gray .-set free

The Biggest mistake you can ever make is to believe that asking for forgiveness is not enough.
that to forgive yourself is not enough. learn. move on. grow.

The beautiful ones

Lyrics-

Listen, baby, baby, baby
What's it gonna be?
Oh baby, baby, baby
Is it him or is it me?

Don't make me waste my time
Don't make me lose my mind baby

Baby, baby, baby
Can't you stay with me tonight?
Oh baby, baby, baby come home
Don't my kisses please you right?

You were so hard to find
The beautiful one they hurt you every time

Ya take a perfect picture, baby
And bring to life a vision in someone's mind
(Still the beautiful one's)
(The beautiful one's)
Ya always smash the picture
Ya always, baby
Every time, check it out

If I told you baby
That I was in love with you
Oh baby, baby, baby
If we got married, would that be cool?

You make me so confused
The beautiful one's you always seem to lose

Poledance workout week 6

"Boy why don't you tell me what you want from me" yupp, we danced to this.

another Gem to dance to is 'Quand j'ai peur de tout' by Patricia Kaas. I LOOOOOOOOOVE her voice and have been a fan of hers since I was 11 years old.

The rythm is beautiful for a sexy dance :)

Lyrics below

 Quand J'ai peur de tout

Des enfants qui s'lancent
une mme apparence
Des clats de soleil
Des rayons d'innocence
Avant la prudence
Avant la malchance
Des enfants pareils
Y-a-t-il un sort, un signe
Est-ce un doigt qui dsigne
Celle ou celui qui va
Renoncer pas pas
Comment, qui sont-ils
Ces gens trop fragiles
Qui ne savent pas
Vivre quand tout lche, quand tout casse,
quand tout clash
Quand tous les blues ont sali ta raison,
ta maison, tes saisons
Quand tout est sombre, plus rien n'est doux
j'ai peur de tout
Si ma vie je l'invente
Lgre et insouciante
Je les croise au hasard
Dans les rues dans les bars
Fatigus, dociles
Ailleurs immobiles
Je ressens tout a, tout ce froid
Cette intime fracture
Cette lzarde au mur
Je la sais, elle est l
Toujours au fond de moi
Et parfois je coule
Comme une pierre qui roule
Qui roule si bas
Si bas ... quand tout lche, quand tout casse,
quand tout clash
Quand tout les blues ont sali ta raison,
ta maison, tes saisons
Quand tout est sombre, plus rien n'est doux
Quand j'ai peur de tout
Si j'avais pu m'enfermer dans tes bras
M'enfermer, me protger
Mais o es-tu dans ces moments l
Qui pourrait m'apaiser ? Oh...
Vivre quand tout lche, quand tout casse,
quand tout clash
Quand tous les blues ont sali ta raison,
ta maison, tes saisons
Quand tout est sombre, plus rien n'est doux
j'ai peur de tout
j'ai peur de tout, si peur de tout, si peur de ...
Tous les blues ont sali ta raison, ta maison,
tes saisons
Quand tout est sombre, plus rien n'est doux
Et parfois quand je coule, comme une pierre
qui roule
j'ai peur de tout
j'ai peur de tout
j'ai peur de tout