My L♥ve My Hopes My Dreams

Loooooooove Mariah Carey! So here's a super girly thing im into- renewing vows every year with my boo after you've been married a few years! #crossingfingers #wedding #marriage #dreams :)

Heidi Klum and Seal did it every year until they parted ways. Mariah Carey and Nick do it as well....it just sounds like a beautiful thing to do. 

You could start doing it the following year just one year into your marriage but you'll probably still be high off the fact that you're married to your love.....Id ride that wave a few years first but to each their own:)

but obviously anniversaries should be awesome badass and all kinds of EPIC from the start! If you can afford it something like a ....lavish vacation to Fiji or Hawaii.....Bali is beautiful too so i wouldn't mind going back there. What else... a nice weekend getaway  with friends  or a roadtrip in Europe could be cool.... Rock climbing in Maine http://www.shape.com/lifestyle/fit-getaways/12-places-go-rock-climbing-you-die/slide/2  Or super awesome country hoppin in Africa (Ethiopia is a MUST, Egypt is gorgeous....haven't been back in years. South Africa! Morocco!)
Or a nice picknick in the park, just the two of you! whatever you prefer as a couple.

O man, Diving would be so romantic!....I got my first certificate when I was 13 I think. been diving ever since but actually havent in a couple of years #saddsies #timeflies! :( So obviously, that needs to happen asap!

South Africa is a great location for that -check out this awesome list http://www.theguardian.com/travel/2006/dec/14/diving.top10.southafrica  My top favs on it are...

Sulawesi, Indonesia

Little Cayman, British West Indies

7. The Bismarck Sea, Papua New Guinea

8. Sipadan Island, Malaysian Borneo

10. Bikini Atoll, Marshall Islands

whatever we decide to do ,
<------ this  is SO going to be the song we dance to....Horizontally! Im such a swine sometimes -
Sorry! I just Had to throw in a dirty joke in there lmao. No but seriously, I adore this song "I'll be your lover too" by Van Morrison

not giving the hubby much choice here on the song selection am i ? lol. Man as much as I enjoy working hard, pursuing my goals (and achieving them) im all about love. Its the most beautiful thing you can have in life #blessed.
The things you can build, create, achieve when you have it....the patience, power, understanding you get with love in your life.....#nolimit.

I wish it for myself and I wish it for you. An ideal setup for me would be a few years with my Hubby where we get to enjoy each other and the world together. Then little awesome kids that would obviously be the most gorgeous creatures ON THE PLANET! I definitely wanna be a young mom...but not too young. Before 30 though...so i got time! but those things are hard to plan. Sometimes life has its own plan for ya:) I hope to be a successful Actress & writer. And that music always stays in my life. I hope  'Project Abel' grows and becomes a popular concept all over the world. For those of you who dont know, I started this charity project a few years back, its really more of an extention of something my grandmother Abeba, used to do back in Ethiopia. you can check out the blog http://projectabel.blogspot.com/ here if you're interested in staying updated on our missions.
what else....I hope my family stays united , that they each find success in all their endeavors....that they stay Happy and strong and healthy. That we continue to be good and kind people.

I love thinking and writing about all the things I want to do when I have love. I like saying it out loud. All the things I like to do on my own seems SOOO much more fun with the love of my life. Waterskiing, Rock climbing, Dancing, movies, acting, singing, writing... hell  just waking up and taking a shower suddenly is an adventure when you're Inlove, no? lol:)

With #Love, you can do anything so Be a good Lover! I don't mean in bed (well...definitely that too...super important lol!) but I mean....Love good as in.... Be kind, be respectful. Say sorry when you're wrong. Back off when you know you should. always him/her first. Their happiness, their dreams, this sorrow, their achievements, assuring your loved ones peace of mind is SO important and should be Nr 1. Because if what you have is real then YOU are his/her priority too.

Its not hard at all. Love is very easy. It gets hard when you try to fake it. if its not there, its just not. In which case if you're smart, someone you used to love can become a beloved friend. It all depends how you play it ...and what you want.

 people tend to sometimes focus on one person who's just not in love anymore and refuse to let go. they focus so hard that they're missing out on greatness. This Epic, blood boiling passionate love where the right person is waiting to LOVE you so good, so right, so amazingly mindblowingly well that you cant remember life before them. Love has a way of bleeding into your past and just taking over....like its always been there and once you found the right person, you could suddenly see it and it triggers this massive dosage of #endorphins into your whole body. Suddenly painful memories are easier to carry, some burdens disappear all together, the world is more beautiful and colors are brighter...lol...the whole drama! :)

Love heals. its not just a thing people say....its true.
When you finally let love in....its as if the person you've found and Love (and loves you back.....(cause if they don't you're just obsessing... which is socially acceptable for like 5 seconds but then its just creepy ) has ALWAYS loved you and been there.

isnt that something?


Yea I got all deep and shit lol

alrighty, I'm outta here! xo

Pole dance Workout week 1 & 2!

my first real pole dance lesson! I was SO nervous but it wasnt long before

 lost myself in the music.
In this room you have permission to play and it felt amazing. That song 'Sail' by  Awolnation came on  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JaAWdljhD5o  on and I just couldn't be stopped. each person takes this class for their own reasons. It could be for your self esteem, a gift from/for your loved one...or just for fun.
For me....I wanted to own my sexuality,to move towards my man and KNOW im driving him crazy. It was important for me to FEEL like im in control. im slave to my passion when Im in love and that doesnt always feel good.

 I wanted to be a stroke, a heart attack,the best high of his life.

My badass teacher made a point of saying...."move slow. touch yourself when you're moving...its ok".   It was such a rush to be honest....somewhere along the way, it became less about owning my man, and more about me...which is exactly what I had hoped for....how far can I go? How naughty can i get? I got so high on myself, In the end I was dancing with my eyes closed.

I wasn't worried about who was watching. it wasn't about or for my man....I was in control. it was for me.


So yea...erhm....that was my first real pole dance workout lol. I highly recommend it!
I went straight to a bikram session afterwards where I gasped for air as I twisted my body in less sexy poses. but i didnt pass out yaaaaaaaaaay! lol overall a great day for my body:))

week 2 -class 2

We learned this sexy routine at the end of class which we all did together.The vibe was so electric....there was so much power in that room . I didn't get lost in my own head like the 1st class.I was enjoying watching the other women find their power as they danced. The whole thing is SO erotic because passion is one of those things you cant touch but KNOW is real. So when the female body moves like that...its like giving passion a face, a body....legs, breasts...neck...
Did I mention im falling in love with my body? ♥ 

  the instructor told us to focus on something that fuels us so we could do the routine with an edge.
For me, sex has never been a casual thing. Id only give my body to express to a man... what my words cant. its an extention of my love, my passion, my desire. So I thought of being SO passionately in love, nothing else exists. I thought about being touched, kissed, caressed all over by my love....my hands were his hands as they moved all over my body. ....his eyes drinking my body in as I moved for him. He was the entire room, he was the pole, the floor...he was everywhere.
It was beautiful.
 'Inside my love' by Delilah was one of the songs played and it stayed in my head. I continued building on the routine even after class with the song on repeat. It was like tantric sex....I kept channeling the fire back into my body throughout the day. i went to a Bikram class right after - could just feel my body smiling as I put my body through another workout. I've never had this much fun giving my own body attention. Im falling inlove. everyday ♥

Check out lyrics to 'inside my love' below. xo


Delilah - INSIDE MY LOVE

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahTwo people, just meeting, barely touching each otherTwo spirits, greeting, tryna carry each furtherYou are one, and I am anotherWe should be, one inside each other
You can see inside me, will you come inside meDo you wanna ride, inside my loveYou can see inside me, will you come inside meDo you wanna ride, inside my love
Two strangers, not strangersOnly lacking the knowingSo willing, feeling[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/inside-my-love-lyrics-delilah.html ]Infinite growingWhile we're here, the whole world is turningWe should be, one, fulfilling the yearning
You can see inside me, will you come inside meDo you wanna ride, inside my loveYou can see inside me, will you come inside meDo you wanna ride, inside my love
You can see inside me, will you come inside meDo you wanna ride, inside my loveYou can see inside me, will you come inside meDo you wanna ride, inside my love
Inside me, inside me

Read more: DELILAH - INSIDE MY LOVE LYRICS 
If you're interested in Pole dance workout and want to learn more check out deets here http://www.sfactor.com/

Maybe i'll see ya there ! xo

Heartbreak coma girl - 'You're bringing on the heartbreak'

Now Mariah is a phenomenal writer in her own right. This is however one of the best decisions she ever made, to do a cover of 'bringing on the Heartbreak' by def leppard. She sang it so beautifully. from a woman's perspective....oh man, its been a favorite for many years. Enjoy xo




update:
added Def Leppards version, which is the original! sooooo intense omg!!!!!

Summer cold, Bikram, Sfactor !!!

so Bikram yoga yesterday was such a great decision. I had skipped a few days because I was fighting this terrible summer cold so I didnt wanna spread my germs around lol BUT also, I didn't know if I could physically do it.
But I decided to give it a go yesterday. My chest & throat was hurting from all the coughing I'd been doing and I just knew if I got through the 90 minutes, id feel better....and I DID. not only did I get through it, It was actually easy. I was expecting to have to rest through some poses but I was able to do all of them, time flew...it was wonderful. I got home and slept like a baby! so that was nice.
My girl Amanda is a fantastic Bikram Yoga teacher, I was glad I made it to her class. She is so calming and sweet. To be honest, the entire staff at http://www.bikramyoganyc.com/ Upperwest  are amazing. I haven't tried the other locations yet since this studio is most convenient for me but i've only heard positive things about the staff in the other ones as well. Anyway, Amanda is now actually also my Piano Teacher which I am over the moon about. I've had a hard time finding a Piano teacher in NYC so I was so happy when she mentioned that she teaches. All around great decision to visit bikramville yesterday lol :)

I start SFactor Pole dance workout on the 26th- Im very excited about that! I did my intro class a few weeks ago and it was great. they teach you everything from doing lap dances for your baby, all kinds of moves on and off the pole. It is a WORKOUT.
Its such a clean, professional environment...I was impressed. I can't wait to start! only a few more days too go :)

Stopped by this gorgeous Itailan store a few doors down from the Yoga studio and picked up some beautiful dresses for a photoshoot!





try hot tea before class!

 in Ethiopia (where its really hot times....a million)  I remember watching people constantly drinking hot tea to deal with the heat.  the thing is, It actually helps your body cool down. people in most countries in africa and other hot countries do it all the time.

They offer free green tea at the studio so the other day I took a cup of hot tea and went upstairs to the Yoga room. 

I didn't have a sip of cold water until maybe 40 minutes into the session. After the session was over   I finished my bottle of cold water, took a hot shower and had green tea on my way out.  It made such a huge difference. So I did it again the next day:)

 Its not for everyone but I definitely recommend you at least give it a try. I got an Article  here  you can read on it. Who knows, It might work for you too!

Narcis-sista New toy

visited a therapist today. mandatory appearance....i punched a big mouthed bitches teeth out at the store. She kept yappin on the phone
while im standing RIGHT THERE ready to pay. and she had the nerve to look at me funny. yall know i blacked out.
 when the cops came the girl was crying a river goig all  "im getting married next week" I was like "someone is MARRYING you? i mean...are you blackmailing him into it?!?!"
that lead to even more waterworks. all that talking she was doing, aint talking now huh? i burst out laughing while in handcuffs.
..don't start shit you can't finish sweetheart. i knew she was vain. I knew that remark would hurt. But i was genuinely amused.
I mean, what kind of children would they have? she's hideous but
maybe her fiance was hot? but then why would a hot guy marry her? her pussy must be good. But how did they hook up in the first place
for him to know that? maybe he was drunk the first time? and since then they only fuck in the dark...and he'll be all 'baby its more romantic this way'
and of course she'll buy that crap but really, he's just trying not to look at her ugly face and bust a nut. Oooooh maybe he paper bags it?
Or only hits it from the back? Her face is just an outrage but her body was the shit. Maybe their future children did stand a chance....
all of this of course assuming the poor fiance was hot. Which he's probably not. Ugly marries ugly....usually.
Here is the breakdown:

ugly girl can marry a hot dude if her coochie is good...because dudes are stupid like that. OR if he's blackmailed into it.
ugly girl can marry ugly rich dude....(depends how ugly he is....ugly dudes will take anything)
ugly girl can marry HOT rich dude.....if she blackmails him into it. Or if her coochie is good. Honestly, she'd have to do some serious work for him to touch her in the first place though.
Ugly girls who THINK they're hot may genuinly bag a hot dude rich or whatevs, because self confidece is hot. But they're also extremly annoying because they'll try to step to a hot chick as if they're an equal and we're usually not cool with that. just because homie went rogue doesnt mean WE did...ya know?
ugly girl can marry ugly dude because....well cause they're both ugly. its a match made in barf heaven.

Hot girls can do whatever they want. I know this because I do what I want...because im hot. I should write a book, im fucking brilliant. I could help people.

anyway. so therapy. what a nutjob this freakshow is.
she's looking all concerned charging what...like 500 bucks a minute.
since i had to endure her psycho babble for 1 hour a week (for the next 6 weeks !!!) I wanted to have some fun with it. give her something to get excited about.
I told her im a cutter. That I have 'deep seated emotional' pain that I just can't face so instead of dealing with my emotional issues, i get violent.
I threw in a few abusive relationships ,alcoholism, and rough porn addiction to spice it up...by the end of the session the bitch was ready to cuddle me.
when she stepped out to use the rest room, I read her notes. she' written  'algolagnia' sexual satisfaction from pain....really? must have been the cutter bit that threw her in that direction.
i never suggested I enjoyed the abusive relationships so obviously she just read the books, did the years and passed the tests.
i dont have a problem with therapists. I have a problem with everyone being allowed to be one. They enjoy big words more than they enjoy actually
helping. you're trying to get inside a persons mind and help them see what makes them tick.
In my case for instance, she's trying too hard. If she was listening she'd know I was lying. I smile a little when I lie.
Im a great actress...if I wanna trick you I will. But i was open to her catching me. she just didn't. Im a narcissist and a pathological liar...nothing more to it. thats in the books too, idiot.
But she's terrbily easy to play. On second thought, this whole therapy thing could be fun. By the time im
through with her
 she'll be in a straight jacked. Looks like I found my new toy

Love Music Gyptian Feat. Nicki Minaj

LOOOOOOOVE this song. You just wanna be all over your baby when its on no? :)

Bryant Park, Bette Davis, friends......and a mouse.

I have been traumatized. by a mouse.

this is what happened. Me, John & Lilly were chilling at Bryant Park watching 'Hush Hush sweet Charlotte' (Bette Davis!!) right?

THEN on our way home, we were waiting for the 7 train to take us to time square where we'd go our separate ways. aaaanyhoodles, aside from the three of us, there was a young policeman there minding his own bizwax.

SO, the three of us are cracking jokes, chatting about the movie etc when this douchebag of a mouse CHARGED at me out of nowhere making me sqeeeak like a hyena (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1rH4EdAJ7I<-----click this link if you have NO IDEA what a hyena sounds like cause i made that exact sound.....and it was SO embarrassing!) and hide behind John. The motha effin mouse was gone before anyone could spot it lol.

I was like " o my oprah! SERIOUSLY...no one saw that little fucker charge at ME?!"

Lilly and John are cracking up shaking their heads.

I was still hiding behind John clinging to him for dear life. I looked at the Policeman who was now watching and totally laughing at me too.

"officer! protect me!" I joked mortified

"from what?"

"THE MOUSE! I'd like to make a complaint. Seriously, I wanna file charges. thats like....aggravated assault or something. That mouse had a look. I need a restraining order!!!!"

Lilly, John and Police dude are laughing so hard at this point but this is what happens lol. When im nervous I start talking too much and cracking jokes.

ugggghhhh it was just awful :( but the movie was nice and I had a great time out after a loong day. It was nice to just lay out in the park after an afternoon Bikram session.

Fun times.

That effin mouse. damn.

Back from Bikramville

Just got back from my ‪#‎bikramyoga‬ class! I gotta say, im pretty hooked. I've practiced ‪#‎poweryoga‬ on and off for years but I finally had enough of living in ‪#‎insomniaville‬ (i've had trouble sleeping since I was a kid) so after trying different things that don't involve medicating myself (not a fan of pill poppin) after my first Bikram Yoga class close to a month ago...it has done wonders. I sleep SO much better, you leave the session famished since its ‪#‎Hotyoga‬ so you're sweating up a storm lol. With my ‪#‎Ep‬ coming end of this month, I've been putting in alot of work into that so it helps me relax my mind. Its all around been a great decision to make it an everyday thing for myself. I highly recommend it! Here is a pic from a recent ‪#‎photoshoot‬ with the amazing John Peters . Theme : ‪#‎merpeople‬ ‪#‎lotusposition‬ ‪#‎queen‬ ‪#‎princess‬ ‪#‎poise‬ ‪#‎strong‬‪#‎positive‬ ‪#‎brave‬ ‪#‎eternal‬ ‪#‎free‬ ‪#‎spiritual‬ ‪#‎atpeace‬ ‪#‎yoga‬

“American Dream”: Food loaded into Dumpsters while Hundreds of Hungry Americans Restrained by Police

Is this a  JOKE?!
they TOSSED food in front of hungry starving people??? I can't even deal with this.

American Dream? ( <------click for article)

In my culture (im Ethiopian-Swedish-American)  we have this thing where if you're eating and the stranger next to you isnt, you offer and  say "shall we eat?" its not just a polite question, its a real one. because you simply dont start a meal without asking if the next person would like to share it with you.

this is just pathetic. shame on them.

im Baaaaaack from DC ! Newest addition to Operation #loveyourbody ? pole /exotic dance Workout!

The show on the 29th of june in Washington was AMAZING!
I'll be  posting videos, pics and more but today im super excited about a few things. ONE: back to getting my daily Bikram on. and 2.....I'm adding  pole /exotic dancing workout to my workout program wooohoooooooo!!!

I do know how to get my sexy on BUT i would like to learn some fresh moves! gotta keep it spicy lol and its a great workout so why the doggone not? :)

 if I reaaaally like it (which I suspect I will) I may make Bikram Yoga and Pole/exotic dancing my primary workout with Zumba  about....twice a week and Rock climbing down in chelsea once a week.
Havent gotten a chance to start rock climbing yet. Still waiting on my buddy but honestly, I'm about to just go ahead on my own ! I've always enjoyed rock climbing and am SO pumped to start again!

Operation LOVE YOUR BODY is on full steam!
Fun! 

Cowtown rodeo. Horse dies during live show.

Im devastated but not one bit surprised. things like this is constantly done in shows involving horses. I've been riding horses since the age of 6, im so passionately attached to their strong nature and free spirit. this is disgusting. SHARK get on this. PLEASE. someone needs to go to jail for this.

filthy greedy fucking assholes. torturing an animal that could actually crush you if it wanted to.....just shows the depth of your cruelty.





http://dailybignews.com/cowtown-rodeo-horse-dies-during-live-show-allegations-of-foul-play/